feel it in my bones

You're knocking at my windows

You're slow to letting me go

And I know this feeling also

This feeling in my bones

another strike to the crumbling tablet that is my youth. i googled 'old things' and there was a funny phrase in all that jumble of text. new old things. thats what i am. a new old thing. it somewhat brings warmth to my already chilling soon-to-be-dead body.

speaking of my body, seriously though. i have aches! which reminds me of a song which i will share with you all now... it makes me feel young again.

internet tunnel vision

The early bird gets the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

i discovered a baby bird in my window well and immediately googled "baby bird trapped window well" and found some interesting reading. i also wanted to find out what species it was so i googled falcon because i know we have some in this area. i browsed through the images for a while until i discovered that the baby looked most like a kestrel falcon. after about 30 minutes or so i finished reading - the chirping stopped. curious. i had completely forgotten about the baby.

,

Stop! Take some time to think,
figure out what's important to you.
You've got to make a serious decision.

indeed i do. should i go to a help group for my addiction to the internet? i like to leave my computer on so i can access the internet for my fix or if i want to google something quickly. for example, last night i was in bed trying to get to sleep but my mind was teeming with ideas. i had this song stuck in my head and i was debating whether or not to get up and google it or not. its lost now, so i think i should have gotten up. i feel like i need to be connected all the time. except when im walking somehwere and i have forgotten my cell, i think i can deal with that. or can i... perhaps ill spend some time on a desert island to see if i can survive. i wont have a friend named wilson though, so it might be a challenge. i like the internet. i likeit a lot. /drool

,,, comma comma comma! take that!

say cheese

The early bird gets the worm, but the second mouse gets the cheese.

why when you google for names, you have to specifically say baby names. arent adult names and baby names the same? well i certainly thought so. i dont know why im thinking about this. i was thinking about what kind of cheese i would bring to a desert island if i could only have one kind for the rest of my life. i thought it would probably have to keep well in warm weather or versatile enough that i could use it to lure small animals for meat. then i thought, i was probably overthinking the problem when i have tons of other more important things to do... like nursing my sickness with alcohol and hardcore drugs. depression doesnt just happen you know, you have to work at it!

my name is lying down, and im an alcoholic.

*squinty constipated face*

like an hour ago i was googling for a quote to add to my post and found this interesting youtube video.


A short film about the pursuit of happiness and self medication.

/cry

damn interesting

The thousand mysteries around us would not trouble but interest us, if only we had cheerful, healthy hearts.

i found this website today, what an interesting read. i was bored so i googled 'interesting' and POW i was hit with the most interesting website ever. haha. i love google and i love this new website. totally worth the time wasted. i recommend all of you to google more often and read articles from this fantasic website!

just do it.

ain't no reason

there ain't no reasons things are this way
its how they've always been and they intend to stay
i can't explain why we live this way
we do it everyday

google it. i heard it on house. *sigh* another day another kick in the nads. see you tomorrow!

[panic mode]

i'm just like.... looking for something to eat but i know i'm not hungry..... isn't that how people end up super duper fat?
-purple viper

umm ok... in about 5 seconds im going to enter [panic mode] and there wont be a wall that will stop me if i want junk food, cheap booze or illegal painkillers. ok thats a lie. stupid financial wall. *grumbles* sucks being penniless T.T which brings me back to my [panic mode] that i apparently cannot enter because im a male. im apparently incapable of stress or some such nonsense so says purple viper (shes extremely stressed people). viper, you need to calm down. im reaching out to you (not in a creepy groping way, like i do with oranges) through my blog to urge you to seek medical attention. i suspect you are loosing hair and bits and parts of your mental faculties. please... please... PLEASE! /cry

woah flashback to ellen.

a little side knowledge that im sure you dont need, but while i was writing this entry i googled groping cause i wanted to check the spelling and i got an awesome new word. frotteurism. google it.

google it

No, you can't always get what you want
You can't always get what you want
You can't always get what you want
But if you try sometimes you just might find
You get what you need

(google it. /drool)

Aside: I was surfing the intertubes and i found a remarkable emoticon. it reminded me of a friend [codename: purple viper]. behold... d^_^b

let me update you on my injured friend, his whole hand looks as if it was burned! seriously. but time heals most wounds and his skin is growing back nicely. there was a point in time when the doctors considered skin grafting so he wouldnt have patches of exposed flesh (eww). but lets face it, if he looses the ability to use that hand, ill have at least some sort of disabled friend... d^_^b no, you cant always get what you want, but if you try sometimes you just might find...

Thanks purple viper <3